And a sheepish....just oooone more...

Well I thought I'd better give the good with the bad. Only a handful of people have seen my "before" shots. For obvious reasons... ICK. Thought it would be nice to show where I started. And well with the other I'm attempting a pose. I was the worst "model" i think my camera man has ever come across!!! hehe Oh and scuse the tag hanging out of my swimmers... we noticed after many, many pics... see definitely not a natural!!!



So now what?!?! I've been living for today, everything has been for Easter Saturday... THE DAY. I feel strange now, empty, like... what's next?! That's something I will be in touch with Sue about :) I havent looked past today so much so that i "forgot" I'm heading to Sydney on Thursday for the FILEX convention!! LoL My mum and sis are coming along as well... she's getting married in September, so they'll do wedding stuff while I do fitness stuff, which suits me fine!! We also have just over 2 days for pleasure stuff as well when I'm not "working". Whole trip is a business tax deduction though ;) .. Gotta love that!!
I also "forgot" that tomorrow I am in a 5 km race. We here in Mackay are hosting the Suncorp Nth Qld Games this weekend and I'm racing in the morning. Not ideal training prep being on a depletion diet, but hey, I'll give it my best shot. They requested a blurb on me in case I come in a good position and asked my goal time... well I was aiming for a PB, but with lack of specific training 25mins would be a god-send, not exactly a 'gold-class' performance however!! But finishing my 12 weeks was my number 1 priority, and I have no regrets.
Me and my boy planned a nice meal today, but you know after my photo shoot, I really wasn't craving anything. He wanted resturant-style eating, I wanted a salad bar to have a wrap or something!! What i really really wanted was oats and cottage chees and maple syrup. He was not impressed so I didn't push that one!! I ended up with sushi and an ice-cream from Cold Rock. I really wasn't missing out on much. Oh plus the lil chocolates that have appeared in the house... and the... LOL So, i've eaten a few things "bad" today, but I've paid for it. Me and the loo have become quite friendly this evening *sighs* My stomach is telling me something.. Anyway I'll be all good again tomorrow, feeling how I felt today far outweighs how good ANYTHING tastes. I will continue to fuel my body for performance, not for pleasure, coz I know how much better i really do perform!! IN THE GYM AND IN MY SPORTS THAT IS!!! In case minds were in gutter :P
Speaking of which, once these last pics have uploaded, I better get to bed for a good sleep for my run tomorrow. :) I just finished munching on an apple... YUM And sharleen, you can't get up me for more than one piece of fruit today.. HEHE!!! ;)
Till tomorrow when I will present my "Speech"....
SELINA (the new one!!! hee hee) XOXOXOX

OK I can't help myself... a few more

IT'S ALL ABOUT ME ME MEEEEEEEEE TODAY!! lol

Well here's a "fun" shot, I can't remember this one being taken!! Being a dag tensing up, but he 'captured the moment' lol
And one of my fave upper torso shots.

HERE THEY ARE!!!!

OK Here's me as of this morning!! I have a million pics to choose from and ended up picking two of the same poses!! WOOPS! Anyway took me 40mins to upload (very very slow and old puter) so I ain't changing it!!!
Can you believe I had the darkest spray tan possible, and two coats... Hate to see the real me, you would need your sunnies on!!! lol
THANK YOU SUE AND SHARLEEN!!!!!!!!

FINISHED!!!!!!!!!

I HAD SOOOOOOOO MUCH FUN TODAY!!!!!!!!!! The photo shoot was just awesome!! I didn't have much sleep, the wine sent me over the edge right away, then I had a bit of an upset stomache, but that was prolly just nerves as well!! I was up with the sun, and tried to make myself look and feel decent.
Had another wine at 8.30am, it felt so wrong, but at least it calmed my nerves!! Went straight to "The Shoot" and well let me say I'm def not a natural poser, I was stiff as a board, but he made me feel better. I was there for nearly 2 hours!! It was great fun, I even had an audience with my mum, sis and other half to 'assist'.
Anyway enough of that... I'll try and attach a few pics. I got one CD with 100 pics, but not all of them are on there, he must have forgot to copy about half of them, so I'll be right onto him first thing Tuesday morning.
Here goes...
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I can't post pics at the moment. I'm OVER having computer issues!!! I was at home but my home puter couldn't read the CD with the photos (it's very old), so I drove to boys house, and now still no go. I'm def not going into work now, maybe tomorrow :(
Sorry.....

I HATE BEING PUTER ILLITERATE!!!!!!

I have been here stuffing around for nearly two hours on this damn piece of machinery!!!!!!!!! FRUSTRATED!!
I'm trying to add the blogs I read, for some that's a simple task, but for me.... *shrugs*
I have listed all the blogs exactly the same way, but only half of them show up!! *BIG SIGHS* So to those I haven't listed, I will work it out. At least time is flying past, must keep busy today, I've only just eaten my second serving of fish today, oops, was 4 hours after my first so that's OK.
I had my spray tan last nite (obviously nowhere open today) then tried to stay up late so I could sleep in and make this day go faster, but no, I was sleepy by 9pm but held on and read till 10pm ish then crashed. Silly me didn't turn my alarm off from yesterday, so it beep beeped me outta my dreams at 5.30am. YUK. Never really got back into a decent sleep after that so got up at 7.30am and had my final supper of sweet potato. I love that stuff :) Rest of the day just protein... till tonite!! I GET A GLASS OF RED WINE!!! And I'm making a big deal out of it, my OH is gonna have it with me. JUST ONE for me tho :(. It's soooo hard today to pace myself with the one litre of water I'm allowed. Especially after the week of trying for 6each day, I must admit I was only getting 5 in, but my bladder still wasn't impressed!
Anyway I jumped on the scales this morning, just to have a lil look and I nearly died. I've been telling Shar that I'd love to see what 47kgs looks like on the scales, my lowest has been 48.2. Welllll today it went to 46.8kgs! So after all that I still haven't seen 47kgs. LoL ;) I'm well aware that reading is attributed to the depletion diet I'm suffering through, but hey, ill take it!!
Well that's prolly it, cleaned my car, might read more book, just hang out till my wine then go to bed nice and early so I can be organised nice and early in the morning to look as good as I can when feeling as crap as I am!! Heheh actually other than the first few days when I was a bit ill, I'm surprised at how I've been, a few wall hits but just keep on keeping on.
Till tomorrow.................THE DAY.......................... TOOTALOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I'M FEELING HEAPS BETTER!!

Well, I made myself eat some fish and beans and off to the gym I went (I don't train at my own studio, I need a mental break most days). I asked the owner if I could try his body fat scales (The fat-ometer as I prefer to call it!!) just to see the differences with my handheld one.
Well he was quite impressed with all my readings!!!!! I was so excited. We don't chat on a regular basis, if at all, but he said I have def changed since training consistently. he said I look "harder" and "more athletic" WHOOPPPEEE!!! He also mentioned that another girl he trains said something about "looking like her" meaning ME... i mean ME!! Isn't it funny, in your own skin there's so much more work to be done, you focus on the parts that aren't up to your standards, yet others see you as being fine, and what they strive to achieve.
As far as Im concerned, in my clothes, yes there's a def improvement, but put me in those swimmers, its still scary!! *Fingers crossed* that my final pics are OK. I'm a bit worried.
Better go have more food, I've got an appetite, I must be gettin better. However, I'm never ever EVER gonna eat another chicken breast again. ERGHHH

Well, I'm into day 3 of depletion week, and all hasn't been well. I have been a bit sick... not physically ill, just "off". Since Sunday, I haven't been eating much, the thought of food makes me wanna throw up, and even water tastes gross. Good timing eh, just when all I'm allowed is chicken and beans/broccoli! Unfortunately I haven't really worked out since Saturday (which was the first of the high rep training which was different!). I've been sleeping SOOOOO much, between clients, and even had to cancel some sessions last nite and was in bed at 8pm and crashed through till 5.30am this morning. I am gonna attempt the next work-out in a few hours. My only issue is that I am feeling weak coz of lack of eating! I will make it though, just have to hang in there. Tomorrow I start carb loading so this alone should make me feel better :) Oh must add that my stomache has never been this flat in a long time!!!! hehehe Just the wrong way to go about it tho... :(
Well that's my measly update, not at all exciting :) Will catch up on everyone else's blog later this week!! Tootalooooooooooooo

GET IT DONE

Get it Done!

You have a choice. You can either get things done or let things happen. Letting things happen is easy. It requires no effort on your part. The problem is, when you just let things happen they will almost never be to your liking.

The other choice is to get things done. That requires your active involvement. It takes effort, as well as focus, commitment, discipline and persistence. Those things sound difficult, and they are. Yet just because they're difficult, doesn't mean they're to be avoided.

When you do what it takes to get things done, you'll get the results you want. The only way you can get what you want out of life, is to put in what you have. And that is done through your own efforts and actions.

Sure, you can take your chances and just let things happen. You might even get lucky, though few do. Or, you can step forward, put all you have into every day, and get things done. That is the only reliable way to build the life you desire.

Happy Day!!!

Today I'm having a good/happy day :) Lately things have been topsy-turvy, but you know when you just feel great and like you're on top of everything...?!?! Well its one of those. I had a few client cancellations today, which is never what I like, but that has given me more time to catch up (the pile is FINALLY getting smaller!!) AND drum roll..... TWO sessions of cardio. One was my allotted session, and I just got back from a 40 min steady sess at the gym. Burn calories....BURN!!! Hope I don't get in trub for doing double, but I did sitck to my HR zones. So I'm feeling quite happy chappy and content. Food has been spotless as well of course!!

Sue, Shar, Hilary and Rae - again thanks for your motivating input!! Sue, ta for your comment on my arms....don't want no toothpicks!! ;)

Rae - I've stolen a paragraph from your blog... Yet another motivating, to the point quote:
"Keep working toward your dreams and goals. Each day you stick to your nutrition plan and training brings you a step closer. Each day you don't stick to your nutrition plan and training either stalls your progress or takes you a step further away... so keep putting one foot in front of the other!! " Keeping this in my head for the last 10, yes only TEN days.

I'm planning well ahead for next week. The big chook stock-up and cook-up on Saturday, into serving containers so there's no reason to even contemplate looking at any other shelf in the fridge. I'm booking myself out solid with clients (except for allotted training times on Mon and Tues!! And of course, eating times), so that I can't think how hungry I am. Having a late nite Thursday nite coz got my tan booked at 7.45pm... closed for Good Friday on Friday SOOO this will be my hard day. HOwever I'm equipped... Sleeping in, will sleep whenever required during day (Yes I love sleep), and have bought a new book and have many on hold at the library to get keep me occupied. BUT I really don't think I'll be needing all that much to keep me strong, just knowing the pics are on Saturday will be enough!! Anyway nuff bout that. I'm really not that obsessed with it (specially as I was disappointed with my trial at-home-pics). It's just knowing that I got through it, and the changes I have noticed has made me so proud of what I can do when I really try. I will keep going till I get where I want to be :)

Gotta run................. food time! YIPEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! Then working solidly thru till 7pm tonite then I get home and get to eat again, shower, prepare tomorrow's meals and sleep enough to wake up at 4.30 to come back and repeat the cycle!!

Ciao!!!!!

NEARLY THERE!!!!!!!!!!

A few pics from the weekend. Jade-Lyn and her cake for her 2nd birthday and then me and her. I don't know how to turn the pic round... hepl?!?!

Had a few topsy turvy days after my early Saturday morning. Had a great work-out that morning after posting, and if I say so myself, I looked HEAPS leaner and defined in the mirrors with the spray tan! It was awesome, I felt good for once!! Better be careful...I might become addicted to them :) Had a nana nap after that then did my big shopping haul for the week, went home and cooked then to Jade-Lyn's birthday party, as per the pic!!! She was soooo cute, did NOT want to share her cake with anyone!!

I thought I'd try some pics n poses with new tan and all, so mum played photographer for me... to my absolute disgust, I looked terrible in them. I thought I was looking OK, but the pics say otherwise. I'm crossing my fingers big time that there's a miracle fat loss in the next 2 weeks, or that the photographer can do some editing (LOL only joking there), or trick photography to make me look better. I could have cried, ten weeks and the pics looked like that?!!? :( Anyway, I'm over that, and that's keeping me focused and more determined to give 1248931687614% in the next well only 12 days... Hilary - hope I notice lots of change in the last 2 weeks as you have :) That's a good thing to know!

I'm gonna be faaaaaaaaaaamous. Well not quite. We had a 9km reef forest run on Sunday morning 50mins from town. (Might I add that everyone told me how much weight I had lost and that I was looking so fit - AGAIN I LOVE SPRAY TANS!!!!). After the run they needed a few ppl to drive another hour north to Airlie Beach to get some pics for Runner's World magazine! So me, being me, lil miss dont-miss-a-photo-opportunity went along for the ride. There's gonna be a big 28km run through the rainforest up there organised by our local club and it's being advertised nationally in the hopes of getting lots of participants, sooooo they needed pics for Runner's world mag. We got so many photos, one better turn out!! I'm sure we ran 5kms worth over the same 10m piece of grass "just to make sure". So that's my 10mins of fame!!

Well best be off to do more work, busy busy. Not much time to read what everyone else is up too. Will catch up soon!! Enjoy the rest of your Tuesdays :)

Just a quickie!

Hi to all who popped in and visited my blog :)
It's lovely to 'meet' you all and thanks for all your kind comments!
Rae: Yes I was just a little embarassed at first to see the post on your blog!!! But it's all good... thanks for your lovely introduction :)
Meggie: HI and thanks for dropping in!
Bella: Hi again! Thanks for the tip on the mineral water!! Those lil things might be just what keeps me sane over the next two weeks of hunger!!
Tracey: Love the idea of the mobile tanning!! Will you make trips all the way up the QLD Coast?!?! ;)
Sekhmet: Beki is it? I checked out your blog, and you're a runner too!!! How exciting, I'll pop in more often :)
Jadey: Love your blog! Ta for the mention! Feel like I already know you from reading Rae's blog. hehe. Am excited to follow your progress for your modelling comp!!
Hilary: As always, thanks for your motivating words, tips and hints!!

Gotta run girls, will post properly tomorrow. Enjoy your days!! :)

selina xoso

GOOOOOD MORNING!!!!!!!

Yet another pic of my lil girl! She turned 2 yesterday so party tonite for her!! No cake for Aunty Selina though :(

Why I'm in a good mood is beyond me! I've had NOOO sleep, and have no idea why! Was in bed last nite at 10pm, then awake for toilet trip at 2pm (as you do!) and couldn't get back to sleep! Tossed and turned for 30 mins then thought, bugger it, I'll get up. So ate breakfast at 3am (I WAS STARVING), read catalogues and made my grocery list, read the newspaper, was going to wait till light to go for a run, but got too bored, so showered and came into work, all by 4.30am!!! Had end-of-month reconciling done by 5.30am (THAT will never happen again... that early on the FIRST day of the month!!), and have been emailing/blogging/bludging on the puter. I'm waiting till 8am when the gym I go to opens, and I'm outta here to train hard, then prolly back to bed!!!

I had my first trial spray tan done last nite and I love it!!! If only I could always be this brown unlike the unsightly beluca whale colour I am!! It's a stereotype that if you live in QLD you're tanned! I think maybe that's why I couldn't sleep... I'm excited yet nervous TWO WEEKS TO GO, this time in 2 saturdays I'm preparing for my big PHOTOSHOOT!!! YIPEEEEEEEEE.
I still feel like I have soooo far to go though, maybe 'trick' photography will do it for me ;)
How much body fat can one successfully shed in two weeks?!?!
Also I couldn't sleep coz I was STARVING. I am sooooo terribly hungry all the time. I eat all my correct portions, but this last week, every TWO hours I'm gettin pains again. I always have been a 3-4 hour eater, but 2 hours is just a pain in the ass! Mix that with my water consumption.. every hour on the dot to the loo, well I've got it all at the moment!! hehe

Anyway I had a compliment last nite while being tanned in the raw. "Wow, look at those muscles in your legs, you're so toned". Then up to the upper body "And your arms, I love that toned look, they look sooooo (yes she did drag that out) good". Considering I was feeling quite vulnerable, it did make me feel good. Oh then for the comment that almost made me choke... "So do you compete?" LOL (I'm really really really no where near that!!) FOr a micro second it did make me think... Could I? Then I came back to earth with a thud :)

Well best be off make my time here at work productive. I have a lots planned for this weekend so that I keep my mind out of the fridge :) Busy will always do it, so this weekend its GO GO GO!!!!

Hope everyone else has an awesome one!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't think of a title...

Beside is a piccy of me (on end standing) and Matt (trainer on right end) and our teams in the Lifestream Foundation fundraiser triathlon in October last year. All three teams were made up of clients, who would never ever have thought they would be out there doing it!! I was so proud!!

First of all, HI Alicia and Sharleen. Shar, I have been 100% since that email. I said I swear on the bible, and I'm being PERFECT. No point lying as I'm only lying to myself. As I mentioned to you, I do feel so more powerful for it, I rule food, it doesn't me. When I look back at the "stresses" it seems so small and inappropriate now, but at the time my world was crashing down... seems so silly!

I was up early Saturday morning to attempt a longer run to get my KMs back up. 45mins and i was absolutely stuffed. I went back to bed after a shower and felt like I'd been hit by a bus. I was cold and had a headache, I think i was slightly dehydrated as I hadn't drank or eaten anything. I perked up a bit later on and went and did some window shopping and got a hair-cut so I feel all feminine again! My OH played cricket all day then watched the footy last nite with the boys (which I can't stand) so I bludged here on the puter (on a sat nite, how SAD!) and went to bed early for my big run this morning. It was our normal Sunday club comp run, either 6kms or 17kms. Well I wanted to do more than 6, but have to build up to the 17, so I did 11kms. Felt great. Had to crawl out of bed before 5.30am so I could wake up properly, eat and hydrate and let it digest. Made the 11 in under an hour but wasn't busting my butt so was quite happy with that! Made sure I had my protein drink and piece of fruit (as instructed after my "hard" cardio sess for the week) and waited for all the 17kmers to come in. It was nice as it rained the whole time - no I'm not insane, but it is actually enjoyable running in the rain! It's still drizzling now which I'm hoping will stay all day. OH wants me to go watch cricket - I'd rather have a kindy kip....shhhh don't tell him!! Plus have 1.5hrs netball training tonite and I really don't mind it being cancelled!!! hehe

I've just been rearranging my playlists on my I-River so my dull boring mind-numbing treadmill sessions can be that little more exciting. It's a hard job gettin anything to work on such a slow old puter...

Anyway gonna go have that kindy kip, feeling a lil fatigued!

IN TROUBLE :(

Another one of my beautiful lil goddaughter. Her pics make me smile, she's currently in NZ for a holiday with Mum and Grandma! (errr, i don't know how to turn it round...)

Well I just got the swift kick up the arse I needed. I fessed in my weekly feedback email to Sharleen that last week I fell off the rails at nite and was picky. When I say picky though, its not what you imagine abundances of food... As in I was grabbing at TWO servings of diet jelly and then maybe chucked in some extra fruit that isn't on plan in... things like that. It's not like I eat biscuits and chocolates and chips and all that crap, I CRAVE fruit at the moment!! Especially those big fat juicy green grapes in the fridge... WOOPS back on track. Anyway I'm shit at handling stress and so had a few moments of weakness like that last week. Good food or not, it's still NOT ON PLAN and still extra calories that I really can't afford. I'm def not making excuses. So Sharleen got up me (as needed) and Sue also mailed me on it, so then I know I'm really in double trouble. :( But it's everything I know, WHY WHY WHY do I self-sabotage all the time. I've dropped weight, everyone's saying "STOP", my head says "those grapes are only grapes" etc I GIVE IN!!!!! I WAS SO STRONG BEFORE! However I have crossed that hurdle and things have been back on track this week. It was only 4 nites over a total of 2 weeks that I was "bad", so things have come A LONG way since starting way back in January. I'm not beating myself up TOO much. As mentioned in a previous post, what's done is done, I have to get on and get over it and FOCUS!

My doc trip on Wednesday was good actually... along the lines of stress etc I have been prescribed what I call some "Happy Pills" hehehe I'm only going to use it as a last resort, but my anxiety/panic/stress attacks aren't fun, and 5-6 hours nightly sleep and no nana naps is not good for my health. Then she mentioned speaking to a counsellor if things don't improve....!!! I just prefer to use this lol, my let-off-steam outlet. I'm really not in a bad mental state, time and stress management is something I really need to work on. I've just placed so much pressure on myself completely SUCCESSFULLY this 12 weeks, as well as all the extra clients coming in(I just wanna help EVERYONE!!) so with extra clients comes a LOT of extra paperwork/admin etc, but still no more hours in day!!

Anyway, that's my whinge (yes another one). Off to gym soon-that's another perk with my job, during the day I get the chance to duck off to the gym when no one else is there!! - for Back and Bis and some cardio this evening with a client so I can let off more steam. Better get to work

I'm a-seeing results!!

Oh it was such a photo moment!!!

:) Im a happy lil girwlie! It's my "admin" day today where I don't take clients (also known as catch-up day!!) so I put on something different to wear to work, and got out my fairly new, as in only worn twice 3/4 size 8 pants and they swam on me!!!! They were always a lil big, but man, these are now huge!! Had to get mummy to take a pic as it was such a kodak moment for me!!! so i'd like to share it....heheheeeee !!!!!!!
Been soooo knocked around again lately, but enjoyed a sleep-in till 7.15am this morning, oh how I love Wednesdays, alot nicer than crawling out of bed at 4.30am after 6 hours sleep!
We had our first official round-robin game at netball last nite, and won quite easily. I felt great on court, my fitness is heaps better... How? I have to do LESS cardio, but somehow it's working!! Ran 8km cross-country run on Sunday afternoon (as in literally through waist deep water and over muddy terrain) and totally blitzed it. Ran past ppl that normally come in in front of me, and ended up second female overall. So happy with that, as I didn't even bust my arse to do it! So less training is definitely meaning better results!! I'm also running my fastest times that I have in months. My legs feel so powerful, everyone dreads the hills, I love them coz I accelerate up them!! Maybe I was over-training before?!?! Maybe Sue knows what she's talking about! LOL. (I'm just kidding, I was mortified however when originally she told me to CUT BACK on cardio!!!). So happy with progress, especially the pants this morning!

I got a nice surprise at breakfast. Was enjoying the newspaper scouting the sports section for the Road Runners results and there's my big ugly mug staring at me!! An "action" shot was taken of me at netball last week and it's there for all to see in the sports section. *How embarassing* "Action" shot always means very unflattering!!!!!!

Well best be off to do some work. It's rainy here today, still getting the cyclonic weather so I dare say running will be a bit wet tonite. Legs day at gym today, might hang out there after it and do some dry running :) Just went to chiro, off to doctor now (so much for "admin" day, its my only chance to catch up on life!!!)

Seina xoxo

A WHOLE WEEK LATER!

Pic is of my b'day celebrations of last Saturday nite :) I'm on the right.

Now to this week....I honestly don't know how I'm still awake and alive!!
It was a big one to say the least. My other trainer who takes 50-60 sessions per week was ill ALLL week, so I had to try and cram in as many as I could on top of my 50-60 sessions! I was a stressed mess.

I nearly blogged a few times, but decided against it. I don't want to be blogging all my negative emotions all the time and giving people who read the wrong impression about me. I love my work, my business, but when big doozies are thrown in, I crack under pressure, and to read any posts that are blogged when Im in that frame of mind would have people wondering how on earth I am successful/motivating/inspiring as as Personal Trainer!!!

Anyway, I found out in between netball games on Tuesday nite that he was going to be off for the rest of the week (which is the busy end) and so my head was in the clouds wondering what/how to do everything that I asked my coach to sit off. I NEVER DO THAT. But my head wasn't there, it's not fair to the team. It sounds so silly to write and read now, but at the time, i didn't know whether to laugh or cry. But as always we pull through tho in situations like that!

I got no exercise done till Thursday when i MADE time. My FIRST cardio session for the week was friday (OH NO!!)! I have done all my weight training now and feel heaps better for it.

I had to come into work for a 7am start (yay, sleep-in!!), then raced off to work out, and now am back here! On that, had an awesome back and bis session today, I was giving 110%, - earlier in the day, more relaxed as not so rushed - all makes a difference!

Oh I didn't add that my eating TOTALLY fell off about 4 days. I ate to plan until I got home, and emotionally ate things I shouldn't. I feel terrible like I've blown my great results from last week, but I'm NOT going to spend any more time dwelling on it, more focusing on my last four weeks being perfect. Can't change the past :)

OHHHH... I got waxed yesterday and booked for a trial spray tan then THE photo one! Found a photographer in the same building who happens to be my beauty chick's hubby :) I saw some of his work and I think it will be great! He totally cared about what I was trying to achieve in the pics, and was great. He's seen many bums and boobs so I know I won't have to stress about him seeing me in swimwear! I left there SOOOO excited and pumped! We're going to do approx an hour shoot (depending on how we're going) and I get all the photos on a CD. I asked how many pics, and he said well that depends on how many we can do in an hour!! Great bargain. All for $130, I thought that was fantabulous! I'm so excited :)

So after a low week, it's ended on a high. I have nothing planned except a bit of catch-up sleep!

WHOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

I've dont it!!! I just knew it would happen this week, I made a 100% effort and could just "feel" it!!
My scale reading finally dipped below 49kgs!!! WAY down actually...48.2kgs this morning!!
Now I'm wondering what 47kgs looks like *winks*

Thursday and Friday were better at work, better meaning I was able to breathe easier!! I went to Rob's parents farm with him on Friday nite, and actually enjoy JUST DOING NOTHING! Unfortunately we both had to work Sat morning, so we were up with the birds to get back into town in time. Spent the majority of yesterday there then the phone calls started. My friends decided we were going out last nite to celebrate my birthday.... yea thanks for the notice. Their hubbys are away/babysitting the girrwl, but didn't think that maybe I had already made plans. Anyway to cut a long story short, we went for cocktails (mine was a very tempting diet coke...) and then for tea. I got a grilled chook salad, very boring, but it was nice and on my 'safe' list. Had a few stomache issues yesterday (ie....many toilet trips) so tried to be as plain as possible! Then we went off to the movies and saw Derailed! I highly recommend it! With Jen Aniston, I guessed it would be a girlie movie, but far from it! I really enjoyed it. I visited Rob on the way home, but with major stomache cramps left early to get to bed!

I was interrogated at dinner "Have you lost weight", "You look too skinny" "You're muscles look smaller"
My answers: "Yes i have", "No, you're just not used to it (trust me, I'm FAR from too skinny" and well the last one threw me off coz I feel like my musckes are more developed "Well myst be coz my body fat is coming off everywhere therefore the overall SIZE of my limbs are decreasing"... Anyway, at least we had something to talk about!! lol All in all was a good nite :)

BUGGER....there's something strange going on with my puter here at home. It never lets me add pics onto here GRRR

How quickly moods can change!!!!!!!

Another pic of my lil girwl. What a poser huh! Her first pair of sunglasses. AWWWW


Well, I've been in at work all of 25mins, and I've gone from feeling great, to feeling stressed and those horrible anxiety flutters I get. So starting at the beginning...
Had a long tiring weekend. Sunday afternoon ends with my Road Runners comp run, and I somehow managed to do my best time for this year. 24min 54secs. Still well off my PB, but at least I'm improving. Found out that that actually made me 3rd female overall. Feels like a bit of a farce and 3rd female from but I was probably around 5th last as well in the field of 30 - obviously all dominated by males. Still, I'll take it!! Had netball training for an hour and a half after that, so I should have crashed, but do you think that happened? Last time I looked at the clock was 12pm, I had to be up at 5.15am *sigh*

Monday was my birthday!!!!!!! Tried to reschedule clients so I actually had a break, and wasn't working the 14hours through that I usually do on Mondays. Wasn't much of a break, sometimes I feel nothing can function without me. I did get to train with my OH though, chest and tris :)
Had nice fish and veges for dinner, and of course some choccy birthday cake. That's it for cheating now tho. I took a panadol to help me sleep that nite, and I crashed. Woke up at 4.30am a lil groggy, I really shouldn't do that.

Tuesday was another long day. Very busy but still managed to get to the gym and train my legs with my new program. I'm not one for liking change, I like my routine, but I ended up feeling OK with it. Of course I know I need to change program, but I'm such a "C" stlye!! (If anyone knows the DISC system for personality profiling...). My neck is quite sore today from holding such heavy dumbbells for so many exercises. My assss is soooo sore, however quads are pain free. :) We had our first netball games last nite. I play premier league which is out top comp here, and we just a few short games for 'grading'. We lost one comprehensively, and won one comprehensively. My legs were fine!! My fitness was great!!

So I come to work all happy coz I had a great sleep in. I contacted the director of our local fitness training facility provider weeks ago to recruit more staff. Just got an email from him...
quote.. "
Selina, There are very few Cert 4 qualified people in Mackay. I have a number of students who have the potential but are only at Cert 3 level."
SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO busy and SOOOOO need help. I can't handle working 60+ hours per week anymore. My paperwork and systems are SO far behind, the phone is ringing all the time with new clients (which is awesome). I'm trying to organise my business, weight train 3x week, netball takes up 3 nites per week, running takes up 2! Plus did I mention I have to make time for my boyfriend!!!!!!! My main trainer is booked out, I'm booked out for the hours i AM available for. I just don't know how much longer I can hold on. I feel like I'm constantly under a pump, churning out work like a robot. All i want is a trainer who can work even just a few hours per week to help out. Is that too much!!!!!
GRRRR anyway, there's my whinge :) It is great to be busy, but not when I feel like I'm gonna break down, at the ripe old age of 26!!! heheh But on the same token, I have to take the work when it's there, come winter it usually slackens off.
Anywho I'm here at work, its wednesday, which is paperwork day, so I had really better do some instead of whinging how busy I am!!!
tootlesssssssss

I'm baaaack!

It's Saturday, and after a frustrating morning at work (my damn books for end-of-month is out $1500, and I can't find it ANYWHERE...grrr), then going shopping to find that my rings sent off weeks ago to be re-sized for my small fingers were never sent off...GRRR.... im in a better mood! A bit of retail therapy never hurt! I bought the last sugar-free maple syrup at our health food store. I am the only one that does, as everytime I go, none others have been sold. How do I know they haven't been re-stocked... well the price tag says it all. They're a bit outta date (still taste normal) so they're reduced. I'm hoping they still will sell them although it's obviously a slow line, or I'll have no last resort place to go!! I'll have to order from Sue's site, so that means I have to be organised!!

I trained back and bis last nite and I'm a bit sore. I was tired and didn't want to go, but was glad to be there and pushed out as much as I could. I'm house-sitting this weekend, which comprises of just feeding the cat and sleeping there, hence being at home right now. Will be heading back there tonite, but no sleep-in. Have to wake early as 5 of my clients are participating in a "Ladies only" mini-triathlon 6.30am tomorrow morning. Have to go and cheer em on!

Anywho, am in process of surfing many sites, keeping my mind busy, coz when it's not, that's when the attacks of wanting to binge come on....avoiding at all costs!!!

OK been sittin here for 20mins waiting for a pic to upload...i'm over it, no pic today
:(

It's Friday!!

AWWW that's my gorgeous lil goddaughter. The pics at least 6 months old now, so she's a bigger lil giwrl!! She's turning 2 on the last day of this month and I can't wait to spoil her...again!!! Aunty Selina always pulls through!

Last day of the week, has been a busy (as usual) week, but my body is adapting a lot better now, and I'm surviving on less sleep. Had a mini-crisis during the week, panic, stress, anxiety all piled together... Anywayz I'm over that now. Couldn't make my Road Runners run on wednesday nite :( That was my last one before the Club Championship this sunday. Well I'm struggling to make any decent time let alone be first in my age group again. No defending that crown for me :( Nevermind, life is a bit busy, priorities, proirities. Gotta take the work when I can!

Last nite, I re-did my goal book, and motivation and inspiration book. My old one was a bit not-that-motivating after all. Wow, there's some hot bods out there that I wanna be like. Copied a lot of pics from Sue's site, there's some awesome transformations there!! I wanna be one of them, I wanna be a finalist in her challenge!! (Yet another goal!!)

Other training is good, haven't missed one strength session. Going tonite for the last time this week for back and bis. Went mid morning for cardio :) Didn't mind it, usually get bored outta my brain on the tready.

Anywho, gotta run and prepare for last 5 clients!! HOuse-sitting this weekend, so have to organise myself so I have all my meals/clothes (see I have my priorities in order by putting meals first!) ready to go. Fail to plan, plan to fail!!