The Mind is Made Up

After speaking to the boss lady on Thursday night, we decided that I won't go ahead with the ANB comp next weekend.

From the beginning I was totally intimidated with it being the "Asia Pacifics" - what's a novice like me doing at something like THAT?!?! Although it was for the experience and the FUN of it, I was still a little freaked out.

Then the routine, oh my gosh the routine. I've had it for a month, but I hadn't been practicing like I wanted to - I was so focused on last week's comp (which didn't have a routine, thank goodness!) and nailing the posing that the routine was only of secondary importance.

I came home after last weekend and had a few days of, shall we say, relaxed eating. I still trained hard, and worked on the routine, but I felt like I was cramming. And I was stressing.

My wise mother said: "You've come home on such a high and you loved your experience, do you really want to go down there again, not 100% confident with your routine and fluff it up and be disappointed, and have that as your lasting memory of competing". Isn't she smart.

So, instead of cramming like a mad-woman and being 1000% stressed trying to fit everything in again when I haven't recovered from last weekend, Liz and I decided to pull the pin.

Lana - my best friend down there, and tanner extraordinaire was quite disappointed, I'm sure she just wanted to make me squeal and squirm again with painting that freezing cold contest colour on.

I instantly felt like a HUGE weight had been lifted from my shoulders! So I know it was the right decision. :)

I'm back into my groove with the food, I've been an angel :) And training has been SMASHING!! I almost threw up today, but it didn't quite come. That would have been an accomplishment. I have randoms at the gym comment that I train really hard... I didn't think there was any other way ;) It was "Toughen up Princess" training shirt today - maybe that's why...

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AND girls, thanks SOOO much for your nice comments on my pictures! Jeh - you cracked me up with yours!!! :)) Did your fingers get cramps?!!??